Favorite part of my life is being my late dad's daughter. Papa, i miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. I wish i just could say it to you. k, I really never thought of i can survive without you, but yeah here i am, typing a post about you. XD. LOL i really did miss you. At first, it is unacceptable, but when i think of it then i realized that "perfect" life was never exist. 1 year, yeah 1 year quite long time i didn't see your face, hear your voice. Papa, your death had really changed my whole life . Used to think that i must be thankful to Allah as He didn't take away another one after you, yeah talk is easy, but my mind, my heart keep denying it. I always wished that one day i will found you in any place. hahahahhahahahahaa k sounds silly but i really think of it. Sometimes i just can't stop myself from envying others when watching them hugging/ kissing their fathers in front of me, slowly my heart is breaking, my face starting to make a stupid fake smile, my mind keep playing the whole situation of when my dad is hugging me.. May Allah put u among the faith person.
Moved to Beranang, a really different world to me as i used to lived in town which is full of everything, anything. I can't live freely, i don't even had my privacy . Hate this. School? urghh Don't ever think about that, even i laughed every second , but no one ever understand me, no one knows me better. Maybe i should learn how to fit in an anonymous place like this. Although i've lived here about 6 month but i still feeling that i am an outsider , my boys classmates especially,(not all of them) they hate me. I don't even know why. But boys in another classes can deal with me , i like them, they treat me like i am their old friend. No i don't give a fuck actually. leave em alone. i don't need them. stupid guys.
Favorite part of my life is being my late dad's daughter. Papa, i miss you sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. I wish i just could say it to you. k, I really never thought of i can survive without you, but yeah here i am, typing a post about you. XD. LOL i really did miss you. At first, it is unacceptable, but when i think of it then i realized that "perfect" life was never exist. 1 year, yeah 1 year quite long time i didn't see your face, hear your voice. Papa, your death had really changed my whole life . Used to think that i must be thankful to Allah as He didn't take away another one after you, yeah talk is easy, but my mind, my heart keep denying it. I always wished that one day i will found you in any place. hahahahhahahahahaa k sounds silly but i really think of it. Sometimes i just can't stop myself from envying others when watching them hugging/ kissing their fathers in front of me, slowly my heart is breaking, my face starting to make a stupid fake smile, my mind keep playing the whole situation of when my dad is hugging me.. May Allah put u among the faith person.
Moved to Beranang, a really different world to me as i used to lived in town which is full of everything, anything. I can't live freely, i don't even had my privacy . Hate this. School? urghh Don't ever think about that, even i laughed every second , but no one ever understand me, no one knows me better. Maybe i should learn how to fit in an anonymous place like this. Although i've lived here about 6 month but i still feeling that i am an outsider , my boys classmates especially,(not all of them) they hate me. I don't even know why. But boys in another classes can deal with me , i like them, they treat me like i am their old friend. No i don't give a fuck actually. leave em alone. i don't need them. stupid guys.
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